Okay – so I’m frustrated. As I’m gathering information for my presentation on ASD for my psych. class I keep running across the same stuff.
It’s the same old thing, where these parents saw these AMAZING results from their treatment plans instigated on their ASD children. I’m not talking the hour and 1/2 a week that Emma gets of therapy, I’m talking about the parents that give their children 40 HOURS A WEEK of ABA or whatever else therapies. Apparently their children have hardly any autistic characteristics now at all, and you just wouldn’t believe it’s the same child.
What I’m having a really hard time with is the fact that I CAN’T DO THAT. I could quit school, default my student loans, and my husband and I declare bankruptcy (because my loans are helping to keep us afloat), and then give 40 hours a week to her therapy and care. ????
What is going on here? Is that the only way? Am I facing a more impaired-future for my daughter because of my inability to offer her that? Don’t some children turn out the same amount of better WITHOUT that kind of commitment?
It’s a horrible self-induced guilt trip that makes me so angry…
And perhaps a little bit jealous.
Some people can do that for their kids, I guess, and some people have the time and funds to make it happen. It’s such a conflicting bag of emotions. Am I doing the wrong thing by not forfeiting my life to try this approach??? It may be easy for you people not raising a DD child to exclaim, “OMG, of course you shouldn’t do that!” But listen, when you are in this position, you feel that the entire world of your child’s life is resting on these decisions. Perhaps her future to attend school successfully, to have friends, to marry, to live on her own, to have a job. Those variables are completely unknown at this point. Wouldn’t you try? Or at least beat yourself up a little for not being able to?