…and from the back row-

Oh sweet mother of all, does it have to hit from all sides?  I’m dealing with:

1) The chaos of my autistic toddler [sorry, PFL aside] who is now exhibiting some horrible compulsive habits to go along with the rest of it all

2) School, which I seem to be about 2.15 steps behind where I need to be, at all times

3) Trying to recover from going-on-three-months of ridiculous colds/influenza, a horrible now-9-month plantar fasciitis, a leaky bladder [I know, too much information] and a diet that doesn’t fit well to life on the run

4) My grandma’s death, and my mother’s overwhelming grief at losing her mother [I just can’t stand it when my mommy is sad… 😦 ]

NOW.  LET’S ADD MY 15-YEAR OLD SON, R. TO THE MIX…  Gads.  I’ll just go with today:

He let his friend come over to hang out [no friends allowed at the house when we’re not home, unless approved by us parental units].  So, when my DH came home for lunch, R. got scared, and his friend decided to leave via R.’s second-story bedroom window.  Then, R. forgot to SHUT the window, leaving it wide open with curtains trailing outside.  It’s winter time, remember?

At dinner we are eating, and it comes up yet again that my 15-year old doesn’t know the months of the year.  We’ve been working on this for a loooong, looooooooooong time….  :/   He doesn’t remember what month Halloween or Thanksgiving is in, and he doesn’t know what month we are in right now.  He guesses, “Uh, January???”  :\  I still don’t know for sure if he understands YEARS and all that, in connection with dates.  Ugh.

Later, R. is downstairs watching TV, I’m up here trying to study for a big psych test.  He comes up with an empty bottle of gummy vitamin-D supplements.  “Uh, Mom?  I sort of had a couple of these, and then I forgot that they were vitamins, and I forgot that I was eating them, and I finished the rest of the bottle…”  GREAT.  I looked online, and couldn’t find anything too conclusive for a person ingesting over 30,000 IU of vitamin D in one sitting.  So I make him get the phone and the poison control center magnet off the fridge…  and call.  He calls, and at the end of the conversation I ask to talk to the woman.  We had a nice chuckle over me making him call and deal with the situation, and with him eating the bottle of vitamins [especially because I thought it was my 3 year old I had to watch out for].  Ha.  R. is embarrassed as could be, OH WELL.  I asked him if he remembered to take his medicine, and NO.  He hadn’t.  It’s hard to get your ADHD kid to remember to take a pill every day, and it looks like we are going to have to instigate some new methods around here.

About 30 minutes ago, DH comes home from installing our car DVD player headrests and drove up to find our dogs running around outside.  They’d been out forever, as, I’d asked R. to let the dogs out an hour or so previously.  [He knows that entails letting them BACK IN, he’s only done it a few million times.] 😦

OH MY GOD.  And I just ended up in tears, being that he’s expecting to get his learner’s permit in less than 6 months.  Have a job.  A life.

Am I going to have BOTH my kids living with me for the rest of my life?  Are they going to reproduce, and then I can have all my kids and my grandchildren living with me forever?  What in the world is going ON?  I feel very sad right now.


7 thoughts on “…and from the back row-

  1. Robert Prather

    Hey Dear, it’s DH….. are you sure its from the back row or the peanut gallery? Seriously though sorry you are having a rather rotten stressful day. But tomorrow is a new day, with new challenges and revalations, just remember to cherish what we have, where we hope to go, and remember if it kills us both, either your sister or mine is in for a rude awakening! :>) I Love You, DH


  2. Erin

    “There is nothing that the universe throws at you that you can’t handle.”
    (in theory)
    Therefore, you must be destined for something more grand than the strength and beauty you already show your friends and family every day. …though, it seems the universe is throwing more than usual at you these days…
    Also, I know you’re not always as strong as you put on, but that is why you have sisters. 😉

    Thanks for sharing. Maybe R could come for a extended visit to give you a moment’s reprieve?


  3. just when you think things can’t get worse, and that you can’t take anymore……they do and you can!
    it’s really amazing (victor frankle’like) how much humans can handle when put to the test.
    i love you and have always found such joy in you
    your mom


  4. Nicole

    I so relate to everything you said. Especially the “rest of our life” stuff. The only solution I’ve been able to come to is that somehow, as parents, we all help one another so we can do some things with our lives (vacations, etc.) while making sure our children are safe.


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